SOS

by Briana xx   Mar 7, 2007


I can't stand who I'm starting to be,
I was 28 days clean,
Until the other night,
I have come to learn it is an addiction,
Just like all the others

People all have problems,
Some worse than others,
Different people deal with them in different ways,
Some choose alcohol, smoking, drugs..
All addictive,
All have effects on the body,
So why is it people judge us,
Just because our addiction leaves scars

All these things numb the emotional pain,
And even though that pain returns,
It feels good for that exact moment,
Whether it be that drink,
That drag,
That hit,
That cut

So please,
Please understand it's not you,
Trying to quit your addiction isnot easy,
It's very hard
I just need you patience,
Understanding,
Love,
Time

I am so scared of being rejected because of how I deal with my pain,
I am so scared of what I am doing,
I am so scared that one night I will be so upset, things will go too far,
I am so scared that I will never be able to stop,
I am so scared that I will never be loved by anyone

So please pray with me,
Hold my tight, look into my eyes, and whisper..
do not be scared
you can do this
I have faith in you
And together we will get through this..

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  • 17 years ago

    by Once an Angel

    My sweetheart, know that you are not alone. There are many who suffer with that sort of dependancy and addicition. That is my story too. I know what it is like to try for so long, to mess up, and to feel worthless because you gave in. You are not worthless. All it means is you have to keep trying and you can't give up. It means you have to work harder to find other coping strategies and it means, when you fall down, you must get up again. The world is so much more beautiful when it is not tainted by the darkness of an adddtion.

    Many people look down on cutting because it is intentional hurting of oneself. Drugs and alcohol, though harmful to the body, are used to get a high. Many people don't know that cutting can give an endorphine rush to the brain and act as I high and an emotional relief. All they seel is that the person who is cutting their own body, is mutilating themselves and in that respect it seems strange and disgraceful.

    I know I am a stranger, and we are not able to talk face to face. But I do know what you are going through, and I am more than willing to help you through it as much as I can. I answer your poem:
    I am praying for you so do not be scared.
    you can do this,I have faith in you.
    And together we will get through this...
    It will be hard, but I promise it will be worth it,
    and you don't have to fight all alone.

    -Tainted Miko

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