My sweetheart, know that you are not alone. There are many who suffer with that sort of dependancy and addicition. That is my story too. I know what it is like to try for so long, to mess up, and to feel worthless because you gave in. You are not worthless. All it means is you have to keep trying and you can't give up. It means you have to work harder to find other coping strategies and it means, when you fall down, you must get up again. The world is so much more beautiful when it is not tainted by the darkness of an adddtion.

Many people look down on cutting because it is intentional hurting of oneself. Drugs and alcohol, though harmful to the body, are used to get a high. Many people don't know that cutting can give an endorphine rush to the brain and act as I high and an emotional relief. All they seel is that the person who is cutting their own body, is mutilating themselves and in that respect it seems strange and disgraceful.

I know I am a stranger, and we are not able to talk face to face. But I do know what you are going through, and I am more than willing to help you through it as much as I can. I answer your poem:
I am praying for you so do not be scared.
you can do this,I have faith in you.
And together we will get through this...
It will be hard, but I promise it will be worth it,
and you don't have to fight all alone.

-Tainted Miko