HERE I LAY IN MY BED WITH MANY THOUGHTS
PLAYING IN MY HEAD. TEARS BEGIN 2 FORM
UPON MY BLOOD SHOT EYES. AT THIS TIME
IS WHEN I MOSTLY THINK OF LIFE AND HOW
BADLY I WISHED 2 DIE.
U MAKE MY LIFE CRAZY. U DROVE ME 2 MY
INSANITY. UR THE REASON ALL MY FEELINGS
ARE OF ANGER AND ALL MY THOUGHTS ARE OF LIES.
U SAID U LOVED ME BUT IT WAS ALL A LIE I
SHOULD OF KNOWN IT WAS ALL ABOUT MONEY
I SHOULD OF KNOWN U WEREN'T THE ONE, BUT
NO I LOOKED PASSED ALL UR FLAWS. I LOOKED
PASSED IT ALL. I GUESS IT WAS ALL A MISTAKE
CAUSE ALL U DID WAS USE ME IN MANY KINDS
OF WAYS. NOW HERE I LAY NEVER AGAIN 2 BE THE SAME CAUSE UR THE REASON 4 MY PAIN.
I LAY HERE WITH MY SHOT GUN LAYING NEXT 2
ME. LOADED AND READY 2 USE. NOW ALL THAT
I NEED IS 2 FIND ENOUGH STRENGTH 2 BLOW
ALL MY PAIN AWAY.
BUT NO.. I JUST SIT HERE A THINK ABOUT LIFE
AND HOW I'M JUST SLOWLY LETTING IT SLIP BY.
REMEMBERING THE PAIN. ALL THE TEARS REMAIN.
JUST LAYING HERE IN BED THINKING AND
THINKING ABOUT **WHY AIN'T I DEAD?**
~~THIS POEM HAS GREAT MEANING 2 IT, BUT
ONLY IF U UNDERSTAND IT. U GOT 2 LIVE IT
FIRST BEFORE U CAN BELIEVE IT.~~
