My first love.

True love is hard to get, it takes years to make.
yet, true love can take seconds to break.
Then an old love can take years to heal.
Because as a human being I want to feel.
I want to think that it was real.
But in reality it was just a fling.
no, my true love was not the real thing.
no matter how hard I tried,
What I held close had died.
It no longer feels like home,
I feel like he left me alone.
I'm trying to make it.
Trying to take it.
trying to get back to the rest of humanity.
trying to regain my hope, dreams and sanity.
But I'm still trying to move on.
But dear god, it takes so long!