Im Sorry i Love You

Im walking along this street
Trudging slowly through the pouring rain
Pouring my heart out in soft tears that
Touch the ground as I walk

You walk with me, you walk shyly
By my lonely side
You speak no words, your presence all that is existing
Still, I do not feel you are close

Reaching out for my cold blooded hand
I do nothing but flinch away. I am scared of what
I have become on this journey
I am afraid of now fragile I have made myself. I represent
A girl who can be kicked when she is down
A girl who is in love.

I try to keep you out, keep you at an arms length
You cannot hurt me that way, but I still carve my name
Within your heart with my broken mind
I still scream because of what I do to you
To keep myself secretly sane.

For a love that is sobbing from pain
A pain of being loved for who she may be
There is no way out. There is no way out
From the hate that she feels for herself.