A bundle of love with confusion

*i didn't know what section to put this in but it's all good.. hope you enjoy*

I would like to tell you a story,
Just a little thing about my life,
I know this wont be perfect,
You know the normal... The love... The knife.

It started out with this guy,
Best friends as like all,
He'd be the person I went to,
He'd be the person I'd call.

He's bi if you must know,
And in love with a really cool guy,
We all became good friends,
Until this spark started up a lie.

This love was the most confusing,
As this love was not given back,
It was trashed with nasty lies,
The trust it sure did lack.

Not knowing it was the impact,
That hurt my friend the most,
The knife had became his friend,
He was becoming a fading ghost.

I tried to be there to hold him up,
To help him when he went down,
Make him laugh when things got hard,
But I'm just not good at being a clown.

He meant everything to me,
And little did he know,
That every moment I spent with him,
My feelings began to grow.

I felt the pain he did,
Waited for him after class,
Stayed up late to talk to him,
Really hoping these feelings would soon pass.

He came to me for everything,
I'd listen to each word,
It hurt me more than anything,
But my pain was never heard.

I'm not allowed to see him,
Even though in school we do,
I had a fight with his mother,
A major fit she had threw.

I know the heartache within him,
His cuts that drove to deep,
So I had to make a confession,
That my blood started to seep.

I don't know how it got this bad,
I don't know much at all,
I would really love to know,
Why I had let myself fall.

It felt like just yesterday,
When I met this kid online,
Everything was dandy,
Everything was fine.

I fell for my best friend,
This is not the first time,
It makes me feel like shit,
Are you sure it's not a crime?

Now to this day I suffer,
But that will never show,
As long as he is fine and smiling,
That is all I need to know.