In Loving Pain

I'm not looking for all ''5/5s'' on this..my girlfriend is suicidal, and nothing I say will get through to her. I needed to vent, that's all

I know you did it, know you brought it on yourself
but unlike others I can't store emotions away on a shelf
I can't hide the way I feel, the mood I'm in
I can't control how it seems my back is just givin'

I love you so much, but you just dealt me so much pain
you're the dealer of depression right now, I just lost the game
I wish this didn't happen, I wish I could stop it
all the s**t directed at you, I wish I could block it

I see you depressed and I can do nothing but stare
these words you speak, rob my lungs of their air
I wish I could go back in time, and stop what went down
oh how I wish I could take a smile and replace your frown

I'll take your hand and hold it until my very last breath
if that's what it takes I'll stay with you until my very death
If that's what it takes to make you happy again
I'd gladly give up everything just to see you in heaven
I hate seeing you in pain, it's on my mind all the time
you wanna leave this life forever, and this relationship of mine

You wanna kill yourself, but with each cut you hurt me too
if you shot yourself the bullet would strike my heart true
you're what's kept me alive, I'll die once you leave my life
the thought of our severance brings as much pain as any knife

I can't explain it, I wanna take your place
I wanna hold you forever in my embrace
never ever let go, until everything is set right once more
I wanna smuggle you away from pain, behind my closed door

I'll gladly shoulder any burden you have, just shift the weight
I feel like us being there for each other was chosen by fate