Lies lies lies

All i ever wanted was to be loved...
then one day your there...and you changed my life forever. and I'm glad that i met you for you improved me.

then things became complicated and you loved me the way i loved you or so you said. things felt blissful... i was loved.

when i was sad and you were there it was all hugs and warmth that i received. you never needed to ask me what was wrong you automatically knew claimed mind reading and its probably true now that i really know you.

with the good came the bad. i learned your fears and you knew mine. but standing here tonight i have to know the truth....did u truly feel something for me or did u just expect things of me...that i couldn't do without being forced.

was it meant to be or was i just a phase you went through...another notch in your belt so to speak. you know not all the pain and suffering you have caused me.

maybe you never will...especially if i never let you see me again. i cant face you and ask you the truth its near impossible and my heart could just break further.

was it love? i need to know? i want an answer yet i fear i wont like the one i would get. questions answered with more questions in my head not a single answer do i received.

craving the truth. did you ever love me? where does our relationship/friendship stand now. why must you hurt me so much? torture me so? what did i do for you to give me such anxiety and fear and hurt?

all i ever wanted was love. and you were the first to claim a love for me and a need for me in you life. now each passing day increases the strengths of my doubts