Not Over You

As I sit here in class, I think about you and all of the fun times that we have had together. Why are you so afraid to commit to a relationship? Is it because of your shyness, or is it because of your background? Why are you so afraid to fall in love? I was but with you I am not. You allowed me to trust and I let my guard down but then you took it all away and you hurt me really bad. I actually fell in love with you and then all of a sudden it was taken away. It hit me hard and I had no idea what was happening to me. It was all a blur and it left me confused and alone. I was so lost when you did that. And even now I am still confused. I love you with all of my heart and I have no idea what to do. When I want to talk about you or just talk this whole situation out, I can't because all my friends think I am over you and so I cannot talk to them about any of this. I am not over you. I am so far from being over you. I hear a song and I get that feeling, I read something and it sends quivers up my spine. My love for you can be related to a song I have heard recently called P.S I'm Still Not Over You. I want you to listen to it and see how I feel because just like the girl in the song I cannot talk to you in person. As Valentines Day is approaching I get even more sad and lost because last year I was dating you at this time and I felt so good like nothing can ruin it. You bought me flowers, candy and a teddy bear. I was so happy, I even started to blush. This year I will not have that feeling and it makes me really sad to know that. I wish things could go back to the way they were before but I guess that will never happen. I just want you back and there is nothing I can do about it. There will never be anyone else that I love as much as you. Good bye for now but I hope it isn't forever. I love you.