The emotions yet to be revailed

As emptiness would fill me everyday,i still say i wouldn't have it any other way.

it's better uneventful than tragic,i claim,words i use to ease my pain.

i want emotional elation to be mine,i'd trade it for all these superficials combined.

i guess vanity can only get you so much,because for me it's about how i feel,not that that can be touched.

as dillutions of hope have passed away,i've learned not to be dismayed.

i look back at how i was,my negative reaction changed although both that same cause.