I Used To...

I used to be a Christian
I tried to be "like God"
I wanted to be pure
I tried, but became a fraud

I used to believe in something
That I'm not sure is there
I used to believe in someone
Who I'm not sure even cares

I used to live my life
Trying to be perfect
I used to look into the mirror
And see only defect

I used to be happy with my body
But now I can't even fake it
I used to like who I was
But who I am can't take it

I never thought I'd get this bad
I thought I could resist
I never thought I would think
That God may not exist..

*sorry if it's confusing, it's just about a bunch of things thrown together. I do still believe in God, but everyone has doubted times I suppose...