Again

I started again...
the drugs, the cutting,
the lies, the tears,
hiding myself.
But this time it's different... it's worse.
My whole world came crashing down in the blink of an eye.
I have been lying to myself
and to everybody else...
they thought i was doing good
they were proud of me,
i have everyone fooled.
Here i sit, my world has crashed,
it's to late to change the past
all i can do is wait for the future.
I let everyone and myself down
I kept myself from seeing the truth...
from from facing reality.
Hopefully happiness comes my way...
the smiles, the laughter.
I started again...
the drugs, the cutting,
the lies, the tears,
hiding myself.
I have no one else to blame, but myself,
I hope this ends soon...
cause i don't know how much longer i can wait.