Helping Hand

When i should've been more conscious, i was too young to even know what conscious meant

i could have been your motivation instead of just an unyielding shoulder lent

it never occured to me that my father coming around could have affected ur mental state

in a world just ur own it made ur self worthiness do more than simply negate

it made u yearn. yearn for some kind of completion that u thought u'd find in a man

u didn't take the time to sculpt ur hero, u'd take whichever nigga would lend a hand

he'd be your father. he'd do all u thought a father was supposed to do

you never knew that in return for this, he'd feel like he owned u....did u?

now here we are almost thirty and as sad as ur situation makes me

it's like "now what can i do about it without making her hate me?"

if nothing else, i wanna be around to at least still offer that shoulder that i've always been known for

it's wrong i know but i always used ur relationships as what not to go for

but what about my friend? y can't i just open ur eyes and speak my mind and let u know my stance

ur sister and i are tired of going thru this nice girl song and dance

but for once in my life i'm stuck and nyckie does not know what to do

i want u to wake up but you'll disconnect from me, i know u

u convinced urself that this is life but i'm telling u it can't be

we came up with the same principals and i don't let a nigga make or break me

i held u solely responsible for ur situation until i really dug inside

memories took me to times where not outwardly, but by rebellion you cried

all cuz u wanted a father! a father that i might add doesn't deserve such beauty to come from his seed

u never stopped to think that it's that fool that might have the need

a need to be loved, a need to be fed, a need to be understood

and those are things that we both know that u can do real good

but he missed his shot...and he's ur dad. not saying he's better than anyone else

but if u don't accept his ways and shit, don't accept it from nobody else

ur better than all that u go thru. i know this bcuz i know u. ur more than what he permits u. and more than that, WE LOVE U.

i'm beggin u PLEASE stop being a stepping stone for some undeserving man

i know i've given my shoulder but if that's what it takes sis, here's my hand