Just thought i'de let you know why.
why i am the way i am.
everything i do is to try to make me better.
not to make me a better person, just to make me better in your eyes.
in all your eyes
in my fauthers eyes,
your the reason i push myself to the point of breaking, as to not let you down.
in my mothers eyes,
you the reason that hide my pain, so i dont break your 'prefict' image of my life.
in my best friends eyes,
your the reason that i act ok, so you can be the one who needs saving and i can save you.
in his eyes,
your the reason that i cant hold down my meals, so that i can be more of what you want.
in my grandparents eyes,
your the reason that i stay so child-like, so you dont see im growing up.
in my aunts eyes,
your the reason that i cant leave.
in my little brothers eyes,
your the reason im still alive.
in my big brothers eyes,
your the reason i party so hard, to have a story to impress you.
in my cousins eyes,
your the reason i do half the stuff i do, so i can fit in your crazy life.
in my big sisters eyes,
your the reason i dont talk about it, i dont want to let you down.
in chalseys eyes,
your the reason i did the drugs, so i could party with you.
in my ex-best friends eyes,
you the reason i dont like myself.
in lizzys eyes,
your the reason i cant deal with my problems, cuz you never let me talk.
in my step moms eyes,
your the reason i dont get along with my dad, cuz its all a compatishon for his love, im done, you win.
in my step-dads eyes,
you the reason i make all the jokes, cuz i know how smart you are and you'll figure it all out.
in my little cousin eyes,
your the reason i dont belive in god, cuz how could he let that happen to you.
in my ex's eyes,
you the reason i dress this way, cuz if you dont want me, who will.
in my brothers eyes,
your the reason i dont tell them how messed up they are, cuz i see you cry when we fight.
in my old friends eyes,
your the reason that i act the way i did, so i could be your crazy friend.
in my new friends eyes,
your the reason that i try so hard, you saved me from rock bottom, how could i let you down.
in brias eyes,
your the reason i know how to find witch friends are fake and witch are real.
in natalies eyes,
your the reason that i speak my mind, cuz who cares if your a freak.
in my cousins eyes,
your the reason im so tough, so that i dont have to 'stay with the girls.'
in julias eyes,
your the reason i hide my life, to keep you way to sheltered.
in HIS ex's eyes,
your the reason i try and look good, cuz if you think im pretty then i know im good enought for him...
and i cange to fit in all YOUR eyes,
but what about my own?
in my eyes,
im not real. im just a series of changes i make, to fit what you think.
