I Love You Lots

Sometimes I wish that you could read my mind
So that maybe you might be able to find
The reason behind why I still love you
Because, believe me, I no longer want to

The pain is just far too much
It is something that no one can touch
It's as if the only one I ever cared for
Has walked away and locked the door

I search for the will to fight
You raised me to my highest height
But you dropped me and watched me plummet
From my heart's mountain summit

Flowers don't appear quite as colorful
The mountain peaks aren't quite as wonderful
When a bird sings, I plug my ears
All I want is to go to bed without all these tears

Thoughts of love bring disappointment
Memories remind me of how I never quite lived in the moment
My heartbeat slows the more I think about life without you
It's something that I never thought I would have to do

I don't think that I have seen your smile
For quite a long while
It ties my heart up in knots
Because I love you baby...I love you lots