The Sea of Failures

Who can save from this life I live?
I have lost all hope of a rescue
My world is caving in so fast
I have no time to take a breath
I always have a stomach ache,
I always am thinking of her
I can't put things into place
I don't know why I try
People don't see life the way I do
How could they?
All of this over a girl I lost
But she was more than a girl to me
She was my angel
The light of my day
The one person who I felt safe with
People have told me I have a bad judge of character
But this takes it to a new extreme
I've created a monster is what I've done
She's taking control of my every move
And she doesn't have to say a word
She said she felt bad for me
Well I don't want her to?
I don't need pity
I need her
She can't see that and it's driving me crazy
It's not like I want her to date me if she doesn't like me
But at the same time I don't think it's possible
To shut down the feelings she had for me so fast
Will she ever miss me?
Will she ever realize what she lost?
These questions will remain answer less I'm afraid
Lost in the sea of failures
And I'm the ruler of the sea