The struggle to go on without you is extreme!
Not because you are missed but because you hurt me as though I was hit by a beam!
No visible wounds, no cuts, no bruises! I hear no screams!
But silence at such times can be so mean!
My pain although unnoticed by all was hard to understand, it all seemed so surreal!
The struggle continues for as long as I live or until I find the cure to block out your evil memories.
Dejection rocks my emotional world - your lies, your untrue words, your stories!
Your wicked acts so skillfully painted, each brush stroke carefully carried out with perfection!
The injustice meted out to me by you invades my mental sanctum of peace causing utter confusion!
At last I have come to the conclusion, that loves mean nothing to a person as vile as you are!
Oh my God you did not even care when I lost my car!
All in a silly attempt to show you that I cared and to justify to you that my love was real!
It makes no difference to you, in your evil table, I was just another meal!
The struggle continues whether you are cognizant of it or not!
The unanswered questions, the misrepresentation, the lies, the buts!
You came in and met me crying then caused me more tears and left adding to them, how does that make you feel?
To come innocently into the life another person and give them a raw deal!
I still don't think that you are a bad person, perhaps it just was not meant to be!
I am not saying that what you did was not wrong, despite this I want you to see!
That all I ever wanted was for you to be happy, even if that means not being with me!
This pain could have been avoided if you had not tried to love me, for this I never asked!
If it was never there from the start - how would this love ever be real, how would it ever last?
I never asked you to wear a gown of love that you did not fit!
You have destroyed me completely Oh pretty one and yet I am glad we split!
I have no animosity towards you anymore - for what is done is done!
It just hurts that your love I could not have won!
Don't worry about me anymore as I drown in the sea of loneliness!
One day things will be set right and then I can smile again in true bliss!
A secret that hurts me everyday - Oh how I miss your kiss!
I just ask Jah for the courage to accept the things I cannot change and the pain of your diss!
How much you hurt me cannot be written for too long is the list!
My tears are not so much for you but because of not doing what my heart told me - dump you when you first hurt me and with you no longer abide!
How could I be so clueless? As your actions repeatedly showed that you did not care about me and yet I chose to stay unflinchingly by your side.
What is most hurtful is that you never once made an effort to really express that you were sorry!
Guess all women of your caliber are unfeeling and always in a hurry!
Certain things in life will always make you wonder and just waste time trying to figure out!
I know I gave my best and yet I cannot understand your behavior - from a woman so devout?
Not everything that glitters is gold - Oh! How you made your face so bold and your heart so cold?
You really rocked my world and hurt me deeply down to my soul!
I loved you very much - for that I cannot tell a lie!
I just wanted to know the truth - to know why?
