Disassembling

The way that I feel tonight
Can only be described without any light
So turn them off I continue to read
Will you be sad...yes indeed

My story begins in late October
I met a girl for which I was never quite love sober
She had a way with words and smiles
The girl men search for for miles and miles

We shared a bond that we thought was heartbreak proof
This was nothing but one big spoof
Things went from bad to worse all in a flash
And before you know it my heart was in the trash

I sit here and think of ways life could be better
Unfortunately, all these things involve me with her
It tears me to shreds knowing that our love is broken
There are still so many answers that will be left unspoken

How come I never lived in the moments had with her?
Because now memories slowly start to blur
But I want to hold onto them forever and day
Yet, there's nothing that will make my life okay

Old hobbies and sports that made me laugh
Seem to have left me with my better half
Brilliant shades of blue, orange, and red
For some reason make me want to go up and cry on my bed

I lost a love that fit so perfectly
Has made my life so much harder to see
Just will my wings to fly away
Or have my wings, like my heart, begun to decay?

The here and now make me cry
The now and then make me sigh
The past and present leave me trembling
My soul has slowly started disassembling