God,
I used to say I didn't want to live my life for you and be a Christian. But somewhere along the way I had a change of heart. And while I may have been bouncing back and forth between wanting to lead a Christian life and not wanting to, I think I've finally settled on wanting to. God I pray that you would give me the strength I need to show your mercy and love to those around me. Use me to do your works, even if it's something I'm not sure I'm entirely ready for because if you want me to do it, I must be ready. God I don't want to be a 'bible hugging, crucifix wearing, honk if you love Jesus' Christian. I remember being turned off to religion because I had a friend who was shoving it down my throat so I don't want to do that. Lord I ask that you help me to be the kind of Christian you think I should be. Help me to show Bryan that there's no harm in being a Christian and still being the person you were before with a slight attitude change. Thank you for giving me such a great friend in Nate. I admire the way he's not ashamed to show his love for you and I would love to be on the same level with you that he is on, but I have a lot of work to do. God I'm going to strive to do so much better. It's in your son's name that I pray all these things.
Amen
