Oh God, what have I done?
What did I do to deserve this?
Agonizing pain of the heart
In my life, that is what exists.
Night after night, tear stained pillows.
Day after day, smiles so fake
I pray that this is just a nightmare
From which I soon will awake
But I've never been that lucky
Noting ever really worked out for me
Surrounded by people who act like they care
But that's not how many of them turn out to be
Went through a few boys, 'til I found "the one"
Ended up broken hearted
I wish that that's where it all began, but
Years before is when it all started.
It began with my parents
A relationship of love and hate
They were the one's who set in stone
My destiny, my fate.
I love them both but cant help but can't help but believe
That a better decision could have led me to a better life
Filled with less tears, and fears and sleepless nights
Less pain and strain from all of this strife.
But I live each day as they come
Slowly conquering my fears
Trying to rid my dreamless nights
Which are replaced with rivers of tears.
