So here's what it's come to, when I realize my life's a waste.
Deciding whether to go on, or end it all with haste.
Always walking around in this hypnotic daze
Wandering through life's confusing maze.
Searching the world to find my place.
But come to find out I'm just a disgrace.
When I decide on a simple solution.
Showing the world my retribution.
Counting out those beautiful pills.
With every knowledge of whose life they'll kill.
I'll write out that beautiful note.
And let that last pill slide down my throat.
I'll sit back and wait for it all to start.
Soon I won't believe the rate of my heart.
I'll close my eyes and wait for it all to end.
Because my heart no one could mend.
I'll know there's no turning back.
When everything starts fading to black.
"Just another lost youth…" they'll say.
"Who decided to take her life one day"
My world has crumbled.
And my thoughts are jumbled.
A decision I have to make.
To live, or my life I take.
It's not one that most should have to think about.
And this isn't something Id usually blurt out.
But could someone please spare a word.
I don't care if it's one Iv heard.
Iv been recently feeling unwanted.
And I feel like I'm being accidentally taunted.
It's not something you should realize your doing.
But it's with something that I wish I could be pursuing.
I wish it could all just be so clear.
And my thoughts that I think would disappear.
If only my world could be a peaceful place.
If only I could feel that beautiful grace.
I need trust, truth and love.
And not the suicide I speak of.
My world is spinning insanly around me.
When all I simply want is to be free
