Tired of...

Tired of pretending it don't hurt
wen you treat me like dirt
tired of knowing its going to fall apart at the end
cause u see me as nothing but a friend

so why does it feel I'm on repeat
no matter wot different guy it is i meet
i swear sum days i just wanna cry
even if its in front of u i wont lie
i try to hold every feeling inside
its all in there trying to hide

it will bottle up nd till i cant anymore
wen the pain of it is more than just sore
wen i would do Nefen to get ova you
but i would do Nefen to be wit u too

yeah as i lay here nd fink of it
i feel one lonely tear in my eye it will sit
i wont let it roll down my face
cause then the rest will cum at uncontrollable pace

just like every night of this hurtful life....