My new revelation

As if the fog has suddenly disappeared
from right in front of me
i realise
you and i will never again be a we

you do not see me
as i wish u did
and i only now understand
that i ended it unwillingly.

i used to see love in your eyes
i used to see hope and idolisation
i now see nothing
i see absolutely no feeling

maybe id rather you hate me
at least then id know you care
but i don't, even those feelings have gone
i only see emptiness.

i cherish those days
so much it hurts
but they are gone
they are in the past..they are no more.

i wish i could forget
i want to
but for some reason
i do not let myself.

i cannot wait till the day
when my poems do not revolve around you
when that day arrives
i know i will finally not care anymore.

it cannot come soon enough,
my impatience overwhelms me.
my pain and anguish has grown too strong
i just want to let it go