Without That Drink....

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
we were talking.. and he was crying. he said, "Heidi, I'm sorry I've been aggressive with you before, it's just that, i grew up in an abusive home. and sometimes things like that just come out, but i would never intentionally hurt you, even though that sounds like a lie. when i was younger, i learned how to cook when i was nine, because my parents were such bad alcoholics that they were never home.

Kirsten *27* says:
awe

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
every night, me and my brothers and my sisters would hide under the bed until they would get home, and my dad would yell around until we got out from under the bed, then he'd beat us with metal bars. only us boys though, because he told us he'd never touch his daughters. he'd beat us until we had bruises that you would never ever be able to imagine. and we had to take it because back then, that's

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
how men handled things." then he's like, "i know i drink a little more than the average person. but sometimes, even though it's wrong, it takes away the pain and the memories.. and it runs in the blood.. so sometimes, it's hard to handle not having that drink in your hand."

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
He told me that a couple years ago.. when i got in shit with the cops. he got aggressive with me that night. and i remember it exactly because he looked so serious when he was telling me.. he looked me right in the eyes with tears going down his face and told me that I'd NEVER in my life time ever have a bruise like the ones he had daily...

Kirsten *27* says:
oh my god....that's SO sad

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
it was so horrible.. like just to imagine.

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
but it doesn't seem like my dad misses him, like my grandpa.. cause my grandpa killed himself

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
and like, I've never heard my dad say one thing about my grandpa before..

Kirsten *27* says:
awe

- Heidi , this has nothing to do with you, it's personal. says:
yea.. it's crazy

Kirsten *27* says:
it's horrible

*IT feels as though I've lost him... all together.

- this here is just a conversation that i had with a friend. it's a true story. My dad went through a lot, and i just thought it was something personal that i would add to my page. you don't have to rate or comment if you don't want too. It's just that, this site makes me feel safe with my personal information.. and if you ever need anybody to talk too, I'm always around.

- Heidi b