A 2 Part Poem about our Love

Part I - March 2006

there once was someone there
every morning when i woke up
there once was someone there
when life had gotten tough

and now my life is better
but i am not OK
because what once i had
all has gone away

even when things were bad
i knew that i had you
when nothing else was right
i knew you loved me too

you said i was the reason
that every morning you woke
you said you would love me forever
was it all just a bad joke?

because now you are gone
and even when you are here
i know that i don't have you
even when your near

you'll hold me for a while
you'll say what ever i want u to
but i know that it wont last
and you'll walk away when i need u

and every time it hurts so much
and every time i cry
but I'm the one who lets you in
i let you leave me high and dry

if only i was not weak
i wish that i was strong
i wish that i could have the strength
to finally move on

i tell myself that I'm alright
i tell myself I'm fine
and maybe it works for a few short days
and then i realize what once was mine

i miss the happy days we had
i miss your love so much
it kills me to go to bed at night
and not to have your touch

i wear your shirt when I'm asleep
i dream of you at night
i tell you that you need to explore
i tell you to live your life

but my heart hurts so bad
when i want you for my own
i want to scream i want to cry
i don't want to be alone

but i know that its not reality
that you will come back right now
so i try to come to grips
with this pain i feel some how

its not working
and the pain goes on
i stare at this ring
and once again know that your gone

when will it fade
when will this go away
or when will you come back
and be with me every day

i want it to be like it once was
i want u to be mine
i love you more than life itself
i swear that ring was a sign

and i know everyone is sick of this
and hearing me cry over you
but i don't think its gonna fade
unless i find someone new

Part II
January 20, 2007

Who knew that you'd come back
I never thought you would
Never could imagine
A year later we're doing good

And as I read that poem I wrote
I remembered how I felt back then
I never want to feel that way
God I pray it never happens again.

I never want to be without you
not even for a day
The thought is just too much too bear
I love you more than words can say

I love you more than this poem
Could ever express to you
I love you more than anything
My love is 100% true

In 5 days it will be one year
since the event that brought us together
I thought it was just an accident
Now I hope that accident is forever

I know we have our ups and downs
I know it can be rough
But I think we can make it through anything
We've made it through so much

I don't always express to you
that I am happy and in love
i hope that it stays this way forever
I pray to the god above

To never let us stray again
Never let us fall apart
Always keep each other
#1 in each other's heart

For you I'll do anything
But I am not perfect
Forgive each other for our faults
Accept the fact were different

Understand we won't always get along
And at times we'll feel despair
But as always a few minutes later
We remind each other we care

Never go to bed angry
Never walk out the door in a fight
If we can remember these things
I think we'll be alright

Sometimes we need some space
To let the anger fall
As long as it ends with a kiss
We can make it through it all

I just wanted to let you know
How much has changed since then
Since I wrote the original poem
And we got back together again

I want to spend my life with you
Your truly my best friend
I love you so much, together always,
Forever and ever, Amen