I don't want to but i will

Why do i bother to love
when all you do is break my heart
and leave me alone to die
this s@#$ is tearing me apart
but i have to leave
i have to run
before the setting
of the sun
i don't want to bleed no more
but the blade my name is calling
i don;'t want to loose you
but i feel myself falling
the blood it drips
like crimson rain
evidence of
this f@#$%^& pain
i thought this was for real
i thought you were for true
you could ask anyone i would have died
to avoid losing you
but you don't care about me
you wouldn't notice if i died tomorrow
all you know how to do is laugh
i can tell you've never felt sorrow
and still the blood it drips
like crimson rain
evidence of
this f#$%^&* pain