Crimson Tears

I have mastered a method to suppress my pain
No longer will I let my cheeks have a tear stain
I will wake up each day with a smile on my face
Appreciating life's moments for time is no race

Making the effort to embellish all five senses
Wearily letting go of the walls I built for defenses
Now bearing the burden to be something I am not
This is not the happiness for which I had sought

Vulnerable underneath a posture of exterior strength
Refusing to let anyone get closer than an arms length
Robotic emotions dictate my learned social reactions
Embraced by numbness preventing tear contractions

Outward appearances are fairly easy to contain
Difficulty arises trying to mask my internal pain
Repeatedly my cherished dreams are torn apart
Freely I let the crimson tears bleed from my heart