I'm bleeding on the inside,
and crying inside too,
i feel so jacked up,
and i don't know what to do,
i locked up all my emotions,
a long time ago,
when i got heart broken,
but that is what happens you know,
i let him in,
i got hurt and sad,
but the only thing that shows,
is me being mad,
my life is falling apart,
i just want to runaway,
maybe i will,
maybe today,
no one can help,
even though they have tried,
but they are too late,
they weren't there when i had first cried,
now my emotions are locked in a chest,
in front of my heart is a electric fence,
and the wait to be back to normal,
gets so tense,
i feel like giving up,
feel like crying,
and deep down inside,
slowly i am dying,
now body can help me,
save me from the darkness,
except for the one,
who at first started this mess,
i want him back,
but i know it will just be the same,
i love him
i think he thinks my love is a game,
he asks for me back,
but i am afraid to get hurt more,
he says he has tried,
but i don't know for sure,
so i locked up my emotions,
and threw away the key,
be heart broken and lonely,
must be my destiny,
no one can replace him,
he was my special angel,
and now he has gone,
and left me to fall in the pits of hell,
so i did what i thought was right,
and locked away my emotions in a steel chest,
and no one will ever unlock it,
until i go to rest,
he can but he won't he,
he gave up trying long ago,
it is all my fault,
this i do know,
but i was scared of getting hurt,
heartbroken once again,
we still talk,
but he is only a friend,
so i locked away my emotions,
somewhere deep down inside,
one day i will break down,
and let my tears drown me like a tide,
but until then i will sit in the darkness of hurt,
hide my pain and bleed inside,
and bleed and die,
on life's unbearable and scary ride...................
