Inside of Me

No matter how hard I try
I can't find the will quit
Hey, I wrote you a song!
But you probably won't like it

All I do is make you sad
And now you don't even speak to me
Love too has its consequences
And I am definitely paying my fee

Living a life without you
Is harder than I thought
I miss EVERY second with you
Even when we fought

Because we'd at least be able to always make it up
But now things probably aren't going to go that way
Looking into your eyes and saying I love you
Is the only thing I love for every day

It never comes though
No matter how much I may plead
I'm still human
And I still bleed

My everything is gone
And has left me for dead
Now I'm shaking from the pain
In my broken heart and my battered head

Don't hate me for the lies
Because I am the one who cries
Don't hate me for the rumors
They leave me scarred with ulcers the size of tumors

No longer can I listen to my favorite song
Because all that it reminds me of is what went wrong
I want to break free of these chains that hold me down
And pray that I can swim so that I don't drowned

I tend to replay our relationship in my head
I playback everything we did along with all that we have said
All I am left with are tears and self pity
And and urge to move FAR away from this city

Words alone don't push me off my road
Because my heart has been ripped and can only be sowed
By stitches and thread you could only provide
But I can never find you because you always hide

My heart has almost lost all its blood
And has caused an invisible flood
A flood only I can see
Because this flood is inside of me