Love Sick

My stomach hurts so much
And I can feel my heart beat inside my head
There's nothing to keep me
From throwing away the life I've led

I lived off a hope that fell short
She loves me...She loves me not
That's the story of my life
A disappointing world in which I am caught

My legs begin to tremble
My fingers feel numb
She's still in my mind
And I can still hear her hum

She wants to be my friend
But I just can't do it
Not after what we've been through
These feelings for her never quit

Sure I could lie and tell her they've stopped
But what good would that do?
It would only create tension
I would always want to say"I still love you"

No reply would come though
And if there was a "I love you too"
It would bring tears of sadness to my eyes
Because the phrase wouldn't be true

I wish I could think otherwise
But i would only be fooling myself
She's taken my heart away
And put it on and old dusty shelf

This shelf is getting weaker
With every passing day
Eventually it will break
And I know I'll die that way

Don't trick yourself into believing
That this story ends with a "happily ever after"
Because the fact of the matter is
I will never be able to live without the sound of her laughter

It fills my ears with a joyous praise
It clears the stormy skies and opens up new gateways
This all may sound so corny and lame
But I refuse to let my feelings put me to shame

Despite the fact that my world has forever changed
I won't let this place I call my life
Turn on me like the last one did
And if it does I'll be pulling the knife

I feel like throwing up
Maybe the pain would subside
And maybe it would completely go
If I just went and died

People think I'm a suicidal psycho
I let them believe what they want to believe
Because I have no will to fight with them
They change it up anyways the way they lie and deceive

It makes me sick just thinking about it
Oh wait...I'm already sick
That's right I've been diagnosed
With a extreme case of being love sick