For once, though the sun...

For once, though the sun,
Shines high in the sky,
I do not smile,
And a tear falls from my eye.

As I remember the times,
When I used to be free,
When I wasn't chained to my heart:
Back then I could see..

And sometimes I wish,
I was back there again,
Where my heart wasn't empty,
Yet throbbing with pain.

Lying here on my bed,
Not for the last time, I'm crying;
I sometimes wish
That I was really dying.

That I had really choked,
When I was strangled inside,
And the whole of me,
Not just part of me died..

Instead of breaking my heart,
I wish that you'd stabbed my throat,
So I can no longer scream,
These words that I've only wrote!

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