What My Mother Doesn't Know

What my mother doesn't know wont make her cry.
Whatever she don't know can be hidden with lies.
She doesn't know i cut myself until it bleeds.
I do this cause of the things she says, but doesn't mean.
She doesn't know I take her pills...popping them one by one.
I couldn't see past her lies.. i was too blinded by the sun.
The verbal abuse that she caused me made me feel so much pain.
She doesn't know I cry at night, and sneak out when it rains.
She only thinks about herself, and puts her kids last.
She doesn't know I take her money to buy the things i long to have.
The physical abuse is what makes me weak.
She abuses my body until i start to bleed.
I hate her for treating me this way.. but i wont let it show.
These things i just said.. my mother can never know.