It Will Never Stop

I was only kidding myself
How could I possibly think she still liked me?
Lately, I have discovered
I am my own worst enemy

Last night, I didn't even cry
But it was not because I wasn't sad
It's because my depression has taken me beyond tears
Yeah, it's really that bad

It should be me and not him!
He isn't worthy of your care
He hasn't sacrificed his entire life
It just isn't fair!

I want to scream and shout
But not one soul would hear me
And that includes you
Not even my Katie

Am I invisible?
That's the way you make me feel
This entire situation
Is still just so surreal

Why do I bother to fight,
When there's no hope of making this right?
Why do I mope all day long,
And cry whenever I hear our song?

Just do me a favor and stay away
I hate being some puppet you love to play
Because you are always the one laughing on the phone
While I'll be the one crying all alone

My blood runs cold with self pity and loss of pride
Thoughts of love dance hand-in-hand with thoughts of suicide
Even if things do go back to the way they were
You still wouldn't be the one I love because you killed her

That girl would never put me through Hell
Only to stomp on my fingers when I've almost reached the top
And simply make me plunge back into the fiery pits
This growing pain will NEVER stop