Save Me From Myself

There is always a conflict
Present in my life.
It’s not one you can see
For it is inside of me.

I have these times
When I get severely depressed.
I get really down on myself
And don’t know what to do.

It’s in times like these
That I hate everything about me.
Everything disgusts me
And I truly hate myself.

I hate:
The way I walk
The way I speak
The way I talk,

The way I look
My stupid ugly face
The way I think
The way that I’m a big disgrace.

Now all of these things might not be true,
That I can admit,
But it’s at times like these
That I can’t convince myself of that.

Also it just has seemed
That no matter what I do,
No matter how happy I seem,
Inside I’m crying.

For some reason no matter
How good things may be
In the back of my mind
I’m sad.

And the things that gets me
Is that I don’t know why,
I don’t know why I’m sad.
Why I can’t be truly happy?

How can I even try
To fix this problem
When I don’t even know
Why I feel this way in the first place?

My emotions are everywhere.
I’m having severe mood swings.
I don’t even know what to think anymore
Or even how to feel.

But that’s not even the worst,
The worst thing is
That I’m beginning to not really care.
I’m about to give up.

Nothing ever seems to go right,
My feelings and emotions just screw up my life
And I despise my own existence
So why should I care?

The thing is I shouldn’t.
I shouldn’t but I do.
I don’t know why either
And I’m about to give up.

So now I ask you to save me.
Please help me.
I need you to save me, please
Save me from myself.