Happiness taunts!

I am just that ordinary girl that you see every day.
I am quiet in my own way.
I understand why you do not see who I really am inside.
Cause between you and me I have alway lied.
I have told you I am something I am not so you will not see my pain
Cause I know that living this life is like a old man with out a cane.
I am like that helpless person on the side of the street.
I am the one that is sad inside and not easy to meet.
I feel the pain that most never do.
But still many have too.
The pain of never really feeling like you fit in.
I play the same game even better then the rest but never do I win.
The pain of having a family that treats you like trash.
Makes you fell like the world is going to crash.
The pain of getting hit in the face for something you never did.
Makes me feel like the worst kid.
The pain of living a life that your scared to do a thing.
Cause your afraid the next hit is going to sting.
Sad but true this is my life.
That is why I have turned to that knife.
I was sick of all the pain I hold.
Cause love is what I am told.
But when you have never had it.
There is no candle lit.
What I wish I had I never will.
Cause I am stuck here I am very still.
Living this life of a girl I wish I never knew.
Cause making you believe I am something else makes me live a life of two.
Why can I not just get rid of the pain that haunts.
Cause from here on it is happiness that taunts.