My Loss of a "Friend"

My loss of a "friend"
Has taught me a lot
It showed me all the things
I didn't see and the things I had forgot

At first it killed
Felt like I was sinking
But then a song helped lift me up
From all my negative thinking

I first felt angry and hurt
I didn't understand why
I still don't but I don't want to know
I'm over all the tears I would cry

If this hadn't happened
I wouldn't know what I know now

Now I know that friends aren't forever
No matter what we all say
Nothing lasts forever
But it doesn't matter, cos tomorrow's a new day

I used to think I was weak
I used to be so forgiving
I used to think everyone meant what they said
I know now that they were all lies

The person I am now
Is so much stronger
If something like this happened a year ago
I would be dead from suicide

I was blinded and now I see
I used to suffocate
Now I can finally breathe
Ever since the day I heard that song

Something happened to me that day
Sitting there listening to the words
It made my eyes light up
A smile came upon my face

I don't think about death anymore
I don't think about how much I hurt
I don't think about all u put me through
I don't think about u that often

But when I do think of u
I seem to pity u
I hear you're not over it yet
How can u not be over it? It was your decision

You decided to let me go
Now I'm sorry for u
But u have to live with that decision
For the rest of your life

I hope one day u wake up
Realize what u did
I hope one day u come to me
Apologize like u did last time

Last time I was different, weak
Last time we didn't work things out
I just decided to give in
As I ran away from the true problem

But as u will see
This time it's different
All u have ever put me through
I don't think I can look u in the eye
Without looking at u with disgust

U made that decision
U live with it
I hope u rot in hell
U don't deserve to be in heaven