The pros and cons of non-existance

My new family is messed up
its one more place i don't belong
my old family was broken, torn, and now its gone
my weeping tears
my screaming throat
my twisted face
burned red for my soul is scorned
i bleed strait from the heart
it comes out in anguish
i don't feel the pain of anything now
because once you hit that all-time low
anything higher just doesn't hurt
its like once you've been stabbed a cut just wont matter
like me
i don't matter
if i disappear, my mother will notice that the laundry is not done
if i disappear, my teachers will see my work lay undone
if i disappear, the tears will stop
the bleeding, will be scabbed
but would anyone mind if i just

Disappeared