I'm now dieing

My life is sad my feelings mad my heart Cray's for someone to love I ask the lord above I doubt he'll answer I wanna give up I wanna break free but the more I try the more I see life in my own eyes as a hell on earth I feel like my life is a curse watching waiting for the happiness I once had flying by in my memory now I only see my enemies with each passing day my hart blackens my eyes glaze as if I'm in a daze I can't love I can't live I'm a prisoner to my own mind I scream for help but no one hears I relive my fears every night I cant give up I wont give in I'm sorry for myself it's to late for that my life will end soon it's funny really I'll laugh and I'll cry I didn't think I was going to die Oh well to late god bye cruel world I hate