She told herself she wouldn't eat.

She tried not to look in the mirror.
She was afraid of what might appear.
Everyone has their own way of dealing with the pain.
If she didn't eat, she wouldn't live.
Her pain would soon be gone.
She was so obsessed with how much she gained.
Shed rather drowned than gain a pound.
Her one and only left for Iraq.
Forever went by and no return.
Without him she didn't want to live.
She was worried that he died.
All she would do was cry.
Her hunger grew, but she refused to eat.
even though the food smelt so sweet.
her bones were showing through.
She denied it, but everyone knew it was true.
In the hospital they tried to make her eat.
She'd put it in her mouth, spit it out and hide it under the seat.
She told herself she wouldn't eat.
She lied to the doctors.
Said she was better.
Said she was fine.
No one could see the signs.
She thought there was no reason to go on.
She couldn't fix whats wrong.
She couldn't make it right.
Her hunger grew
waking her up in the middle of the night.
She pushed it aside, She put up a fight.
She told herself she wouldn't eat.
If she gave in, She would think shes a cheat.
As the days went by she became more weak.
Almost to the point where she couldn't even speak.
He never returned.
Her whole world turned into pain.
She was down to 88 pounds.
She couldn't even get off the ground.
The next morning her mom stopped by and found her lying on the floor.
A helpless body that couldn't take no more.

Two weeks later he came back from Iraq.
He walked up the steps to her door.
A smile on his face.
Her favorite Flowers in his hand.
Ready to get married soon like they had planned.

He was heart broken when he heard the news.
He would never again hear her laugh.
He would never again look into her beautiful eyes.
He couldn't believe he was too late.
If only she would of ate.

*Chelsea*