I Find Myself Caring

I find myself caring,
But I don't know why.
I find myself caring,
As I stare up into the sky.

You think it would be easy to stay away,
But somehow I'm still drawn to you.
I don't know what it is,
But I find myself thinking of everything you do.

So why am I caring,
Because I know I shouldn't be.
Why am I caring,
Especially when there isn't a we.

I know it's something indescribable,
Something I can't explain.
Something that's strange and unusual,
And something that's picking apart my brain.

I'm not sure what it is,
And I won't try to understand.
I never meant for this to happen,
And it definitely was never planned.

I just want things to be normal,
And to go back to the way they were.
It all just feels so surreal,
Like a huge, big blur.

I hope for now we will let this be,
And try to forget the memories.
But I want you to know that I still care,
And really wish that life was fair.