What i am feeling tonight

I have hate everyday right from the start
All it is doing is tearin up my heart

I try to let it go
not to let it show

Why do i feel this pain in my heart
why must i feel this everyday right from the start

I will tell you why:

she has no heart all she does is lie
she let my grandma die and all i can ask is why

She had a bad habit that needed to be taken care of
So she let it get in the way of the family love

Now i believe that money is the root of all evil

in her heart there was never any love
She wanted the money thats all she ever dreamed of

My grandma suffered every day and night
her last dying days were the hardest to fight

Then after my grandmother is gone to a better place
she runs to get the money as if it is a race

she didnt even wait to grieve or cry
she didnt even say goodbye

Then after all of this she still doesnt go by my grandmas wishes

my grandma wanted to be have a buddist funeral that was what she dreamed of
thats the religion that my grandma loved

yet they bury her catholic as if that was what she said
i heard those last dying words as she laid on that bed
I heard all those words that she said

she wanted to know the family would be ok
then she would have known she didnt have to stay

Yet the last thing she heard was yet another lie
as she lie there and slowly painfully die

she was told everything was just fine and it would be ok
she was told that we would miss her-dear lula mae

yet after that nurse came and confirmed what we knew
ms linda thombs knew just what to do

she called the bank and got the money out
she didnt even wait for them to take the body out

she had no emotion at all those few days
she was stuck on her greedy ways

she got what she wanted and thats all that she cared about
she was a greedy selfish_________ without a doubt

now for her greedy ways and that bad habit she had
everyday i feel so sad i hate to say it but the day she dies i will be glad

Linda is not a part of my family she is merely the devil taking over here
i sure do hope that god is near

but you all know what i think of the whole thing
i hear the angels bells as they ring

they got the best person that could ever be
now if they wanted they could take me
my grandma i want to see

thats what i am feeling tonight ms bassler and it hurts so bad