PRETENDiNG

As the darkness over comes me
and i'm to affraid to sleep
i don't know who i should be
time it slowly creeps

people tell me not to cry
that i should be happy
but who could be happy when they want to die
ok,so you want me to pretend my life isn't crappy

and Ill go on with life
maybe some day something will come
maybe I'll save some ones life
maybe i wont be so dumb

i might have good dreams
or i could loose the ones i love
i could keep on pretending
but who i am, i do not love

when i was a child
i thought it was normal,
that i cried myself to sleep every night
and when I'd awake I'd have red rimed eyes

people tell me to be happy
i tell them, I'm just to stressed
they just say you don't know what stress is

but when you try to be happy when your not
it brings you down
every morning when you Start to pretend your someone your not,it makes it worse.