I Beg You To Help

by Simple Sensation   Mar 19, 2007


I ate a toast today.

One tiny little bit of Kingsmill bread,
With a tiny little bit of spread...

I needed the energy,
I felt so weak.
My stomach growled;
And begged me to eat...

But my brain shouted,
Telling me I was fat.
The guilt kicked in
And that was that.

I knelt:
Behind closed doors,
Tap was running
I was down on all fours.

I felt ashamed.
Yet relieved;
The toast was gone
Out of me.

I wish I could recover,
I wish I wasn't so weak.
I wish I wouldn't panic,
I wish I didn't freak.

I beg you to help me,
Help me recover from this disease. You see;
I want to look in the mirror,
And no longer despise the reflection... that is me.

Contemplating Suicide
19th March 2007

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  • 17 years ago

    by Absolute Broken Perfection

    Amazing hun. I love it. I suffer from anorexia but I do have experience as an ana mia, and I think this portrays my thoughts perfectly. Job Well Done. :]

  • 17 years ago

    by Rocky

    Obviesly you've had or have an eating disorder(or maybe someone close to you). you wouldn't have been able to give so much insight into it otherwise. good poem. not excelent but i was writing even worse ones at your age. you've got some talent. my only advice it to practice and wright what feels right to you

    Love is the law, Love under will
    Rocky

  • 17 years ago

    by Curry

    Awh this is real sad:[ but amazinly written. you are such a good writer. i gave this poem a 5.

  • 17 years ago

    by Ironic Allure

    I don't know why, but the rhythm of this poem seemed really calm. i breathed with everyline and it only added to the emotional write.
    "I knelt:
    Behind closed doors,
    Tap was running
    I was down on all fours."

    the pause needed after the line 'I Knelt' made the poem a lot more dramatic and separates your writing from the mediocre recycled words that pollute this website, to something entirely honest and beautiful.
    i'm very much surprised, because the stigma attached to poems about eating disorders is very negative. i really enjoyed this.x

  • 17 years ago

    by CHOKE

    It was a beautiful write. a great read :D and this topic especially appeals to me as i am suffering with the same E.D. 5/5 love.

    well whenever im on here i click the "submit poem" link thing and i just start typing what i feel. i don't pre-write my poems, it's just whatever i feel at that moment, or whatever i feel like writing about.

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