I remember when (bulimia)

I remember when
I was thin
Back Before I had
All this extra skin

I remember when
I could fit into a size zero
I'll never look like them
I'll never become my hero

I remember when
Fat was furthest from my mind
I could eat and eat
And everything would be fine

I remember when
I didn't care what others thought
My own happiness
Was all I sought

I remember when
The first time you came into my life
I thought you could help me
But all you brought was strife

I remember when
You made me doubt how I looked
How you controlled all my decisions
You told me I couldn't eat anything that was cooked

I remember when
You made me push everyone away
How I'd wake up in the morning
Dreading each and every day

I remember when
You'd have me hanging my head
Over my white porcelain sanctuary
Filling my mind with dread

I remember when
Because of you I cried
Standing in front of the mirror
Wishing I could've died

I remember when
You ruined me
You took over my thoughts
You changed what I see

I remember when
I would look at a plate
And start to gag
Seeing everything I just ate

I remember when
I would complain
Saying I was overweight
Driving myself insane

Yes I still do these things
But now I am getting help
I still remember those times
When I didn't like myself
But now it's different
Now I can see
Just what it was
That bulimia was doing to me...