Alone in this desolate cave.. all because of him..

Alone in this desolate cave,
no one can hear my silent screams,
everyone is against me,
each on different teams,

my love is a lie,
he will never be satisfied,
he has no idea,
of how many tears I've cried,

my family a joke,
a big one at that,
sometimes i feel as though they want to get rid of me,
like a pesky rat,

alone in this desolate cave,
no one on my side,
forced to hold my tears in,
make a smile and let my pain hide,

forced to make my heart pump,
and let life take control of me,
the only person who can save me,
my pain he can't see,

falling off a cliff,
running without my feet going anywhere,
wishing i could be 5 or 6,
when i had not one care,

alone in this desolate cave,
a prison more like it,
cause every time i go in,
i come our feeling like shi*,

i want to say forget him,
i don't need him to live,
but that would be a lie,
one i don't think he'd forgive,

i wish i could stop loving him,
cause all it does is cause me more hurt,
crumples up my insides,
and leaves them as little crumbs of dirt,

alone in this desolate cave,
where no one can see my pain,
if they ask if i am OK,
i wouldn't be able to explain,

killing me softly that is what love is doing,
me staying in while he is falling out,
you may consider me,
a person full of doubt,

i just don't see a solution,
if he can't see my pain and i can't tell,
seems he turns my heaven,
into a deep hell,

he brightens my days,
yet turns them Grey and cold,
i am useless servant,
petrified of what he'd say if he reads what i have told,

he stole my heart,
my spirit too,
with three simple words,
i love you,

he isn't there when i fall,
or when i hit the ground,
or when i really need him,
he just turns right away,

alone in this desolate cave,
where all my secrets lay,
i remember when i thought,
life would be OK,

now it's got me in a choke-hold,
and i am having trouble breathing,
every time we don't talk,
i am afraid he must be leaving,

what will i do,
with out my master to control my life,
even though when he is around,
my life is just a strife,

he brightens my life,
yet makes me want to end it all,
he catches me,
yet lets me fall,

he makes me want to live,
yet makes me want to die,
i don't know what to do,
for him i can't seem to satisfy,

so i will sit here in this desolate cave,
and continue to let him kill me,
some how u can't blame him,
cause him killing me he doesn't seem to see........