I want to, but I cant

I want to be me
I just dont know how
I want to be happy
I just forgot how

I want you to remember me
The way I was when I was a kid
I want you to think of me
As a friend and not a pal

I want to be different
I want to be you
I want to be something
That will never be me

I want to stop
But I cant stop lieing
I want you to know the truth
But if I lie I would be more like you