Kaleidoscope of Pain

I look through my inward eye again
To explore deep within me;
Peer through the kaleidoscope of pain
And decipher what i see..

Withe every nudge that life does give
The colours rearrange;
The emotions and thoughts i feel and live
Take forms new and strange..

Sometimes i feel the pain and pleasure
Are illusions and no more;
That guard the elusive priceless treasure
Locked behind perception's door..

Pain proves itself a beautiful thing
That reveals a new paradigm;
The notes of sadness frequently ring
Across the melody of time..

Pleasure, although feels good to feel
Is poison to the mind;
Shrouding our eyes from what is real
Till perception goes blind..

Its sadness that lends us its wings
To rise above the mundane;
To us what glimpses of truth brings
Is the kaleidoscope of pain..

Yet withing this constant change somewhere
Myself i try to find;
I essay to seek the truth, and dare
To break the bonds that bind..

My inwards quest for truth shall sustain
Till i can open my eyes;
And not need any kaleidoscope to gain
My first glimpses of Paradise..