Inner turmoil and wishes

I want to strike out
To vent these inner turmoils
I wish to be rid of these demons inside or me
But I wish not to hurt any one
So I'll keep it all bottled up inside
This silent demon that is killing me from the inside out
I wish I had some way to rid myself of it
I wish I had some way to stop being jealous
I wish I had some way to make all these things come true
But in the end wishing is just a fools game and does not deserve to thought about
Those who wish for something are to weak to grasp what could be theirs
personally I am weak at many a thing
I freely admit it here where I cannot be judged
I am weak yet I am strong
But those who wish for things just have no initiative to grasp these things
I wish a lot of things if only to vent a little of this inner turmoil.
I wish because I know not how to achieve these ends
I wish because I do not know what I should be doing
I wish because I am a love struck fool who cannot think straight
I wish because there is nothing else to do
I wish because I am to afraid to do more
I wish because I lack the drive to grasp life in my hands
I wish because I cannot do these things myself
I wish because I know this and I need someone to stand strong beside me and be an unbreakable rock
An un moveable mountain, a tree that will never fall and a rock that will never smash
I need someone who can help me throught he rough and see me through to better things
I need someone who can kill this demon inside and save me from myself...