Didn't I?

I told myself I wouldn't do it,

I knew I couldn't handle the heartache,

He told me that we'll never be,

just like I knew it would happen.

It's not possible for him to love me,

not more then "I love you like a friend", That's it-nothing but friends,

we can't ever be more,

He loves her and I love him,

I knew it would be like this and I should have been smarter,

He'll never be mine- no matter how hard I ever try,

I am going crazy thinking about how bad what I said affected him,

I don't want him to be bothered by me,

He has way bigger things to deal with,

I shouldn't have done it,

Things were good the way they were,

I screwed up big time this time,

Didn't I?