Speck of dust

He misses his home
But he never misses me
Makes me feel so alone
Unlike who I wanna be

I try my best but its never enough
Only enough to make me be afraid of love
We talk different then before
What i say doesn't matter much
As much as how I look
He likes her cuz shes a wh***
What happened to don't judge a book
By its cover

Feeling like a lonely speck of dust
I can never be who he can trust
And everything he says
It makes me feel guilty
In every little way
Hes avoiding me
I don't like myself
I feel like this is hell
Where ever I turn
There they are
Controlling my every word

We grew apart so fast
I'm starting to shrink back into my past
The months are creeping up on me
And I still cant see a thing in front of me

When he needed a shoulder to cry on
I was there to stand
When he needed a savior to rely on
I tried to understand
But when we came so close
We forgot what to say
Then he climbed back into his corner
While I lost my colors, and went back to gray

Feeling like a lonely speck of dust
I can never be who he can trust
And everything he says
It makes me feel guilty
In every little way
Hes avoiding me
I don't like myself
I feel like this is hell
Where ever I turn
There they are
Controlling my every word

I did all I could
But hes still suicidal
I need an angel
Someone i can rely on
I need help, I need to save him
Even if he
Wouldn't save me